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Saturday, September 29, 2012

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woman is special

Whatever you give a woman, she’s going to multiply. If you give her sperm, She’ll give you a baby. If you give her a house, She’ll give you a home. If you give her groceries, She’ll give you meals. If you give her a smile, She’ll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So - if you give her any crap, you will receive a ton of shit.



Nothing but something


  • G : ENDING is better than PENDING
  • B : DING is better than PING (DING DING, hello there :) )
  • G : RING is better than PING (RING RING, who's there?)
  • B : RING, can U wait me, oneDay I wanna give you a RING >_<
  • G : a RING? U're not kidDING, rite? :D
  • B : oneDay
  • G :I'm waiting...

Quotes perahu kertas



“aku gak mau sepuluh, dua puluh tahun dari hari ini, aku masih terus-terusan memikirkan orang yg sama. bingung di antara penyesalan dan penerimaan.” 

“Karena hati tak perlu memilih, ia selalu tahu kemana harus berlabuh” 

“hati kamu mungkin memilihku, seperti juga hatiku selalu memilihmu. Tapi hati bisa bertumbuh dan bertahan dengan pilihan lain. Kadang, begitu saja sudah cukup. Sekarang aku pun merasa cukup.”

“Kenangan itu hanya hantu di sudut pikir, selama kita diam selamanya dia tetap jadi hantu, ga akan pernah jadi kenyataan” 

“Carilah orang yang nggak perlu meminta apa-apa, tapi kamu mau memberikan segala-segalanya.” 

“Keheningan seakan memiliki jantung. Denyutnya terasa satu-satu, membawa apa yang tak terucap. Sejenak berayun di udara, lalu bagaikan gelombang air bisikan itu mengalir, sampai akhirnya berlabuh di hati.” 

“Kadang-kadang langit bisa kelihatan seperti lembar kosong. Padahal sebenarnya tidak. Bintang kamu tetap di sana. Bumi hanya sedang berputar.” 

“Gy, jalan kita mungkin berputar, tetapi satu saat, entah kapan, kita pasti punya kesempatan jadi diri kita sendiri. Satu saat kamu akan jadi penulis dongeng yang hebat. Saya yakin” 

“Kamu hebat,” decaknya, “itu memang keajaiban. Saya bisa merasakan, anak-anak tadi nyaman banget dengan diri mereka sendiri. Kamu berhasil memancing karakter mereka keluar. Mereka jadi percaya diri, punya harga diri. Punya kebanggaan” 

Layaknya matahari yang tak menyimpan memori atau dendam dan senantiasa memandikan bumi dengan sinarnya, tawa itu pun membawa efek yang sama bagi dirinya.
Kehangatan yang lahir tanpa pretensi. Tanpa perlu usaha. Pengampunan murni.


Bagaimana hampa bisa menyakitkan? Hampa harusnya tidak apa-apa.
Tidak ada apa-apa harusnya berarti tidak ada masalah. Termasuk rasa sakit.


Untuk urusan hati, berhentilah berpikir pakai kepala. Secerdas-cerdasnya otakmu, tidak mungkin bisa dipakai untuk mengerti hati.


Thursday, September 27, 2012

Dear brother ,


This is it. Here we are. All grown up. Life isn’t what we thought it was. But we made it. Together. Always beside me; we watched the same struggles. We learned how to laugh together; to be safe. We learned to stand up when others need help; especially each other. You taught me the meaning of loyalty. You taught me the meaning of team work. In world where we are demonized, stereotyped and put down you were always there.
You also piss me off. Stop blaming other people for the things you must take as your own responsibility. You can make a change, and you can make a difference, it isn’t going to be easy but I will help you. The same way you helped me. And I know they expect guys to be tough, but I am writing this to tell you that I love you, and I miss you.
You roll your eyes at me when I get emotional but I can see how proud you are of me. When good things happen for me. When I am successful. And it’s the same for me. As you create goals, surpass them, deal with obstacles and overcome them, I am inspired by you. You have kept a perspective that is sincere. Its real. It’s funny. I never knew I could laugh until I was physically in pain, but you showed me that too. You literally showed me how to be cool. I watched your moves. I watched how you spoke, I watched how you dressed. I loved the music you listened to and the way everyone seemed to like you. Everyone always thought you were way cooler, more fun and funnier than me.
But sometimes…you’d pick me. Instead of all those people who loved you, you would sit down and talk with me. Hang out. Ask me whats up with me. And those were the moments I treasure. The moments where we could sit and be humans. Just 2 people who saw the same things. Laughed together. And in the loneliest of moments when everything seems dark, even if we cannot be together in body, I want you to know that I am with you. Overcoming those challenges with you. And I know that you are here with me. Whispering words of encouragement, and saying ‘don’t worry about them, I believe in you.’ Giving one another the support that we didn’t even know was possible.
You are on stage looking out at the crowds of adults, elders and children. You are in the room with those engaged young people who say they have an idea that can help their community. You are with me when I talk about peer mentorship, and the importance of just giving a shit. In fact, you are with me right no, as I write down my words as I try to capture this moment. So I can do what you taught me real men are supposed to do: share my gifts with our family and our community.
Sometimes the world shits on us, but if we stand together we can do anything. You showed me how. Even if we do not talk everyday. Even if we don’t see each other all the time, we are stuck with each other. And that is one thing that makes me so grateful that we really are not alone. So ekosi for your example, and I hope that someday I can make you as proud as you have made me.
I love you

I miss my brother

I miss you,
I miss the loud music coming from your room,
I miss the warmth of knowing You're just a call away,
I miss the way we fought and played,
I miss seeing your big bright smile,
I miss getting kicked out of your room,
I miss seeing you here and there,
I miss cooking you breakfast, lunch and dinner,
I miss hearing you come in at night,
I miss making you wear your seat belt,
I miss holding your hand to pray,
I miss your smell,
I miss you with all my might,
I miss the way we would fight,
I miss my brother,
I miss my friend,
I miss you I love you and that's

Miss ma brotha so much ... :'(

Today ... I really missed my brotha so much more, really hurt :'( ... His name is Riadian, we call him " Rian ". He still 18 years old. Now he lives in Jakarta for work in auto 2000. Im very proud with him. He is very smart, clever and humble person. He always understanding my family condition, we are not rich family. My Father was died 7 years ago because of diabets. So ... when Im 18, Im to be family backbone. It's so hard and not easy to be me. But .... My mom and my brother always give me power to be strong. They are very important. Everyone can coming and going everytime they want but not with my mom and rian. They always beside me in every part of my life. I will hard work to make them happy. I always pray may Jesus give love, blessing to my little family .... Amen :)

cassava chips ... the most favorite rian snack
CLEVER STUDENT 
at school 
sleeping handsome .. lol
When primay school .. so cuteee
eating ... by the way he is vegetarian
On swimming pool :D ... How narcissism he is

Rian with friends

(Right) Rian on graduation of  SMK




Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Masih adakah sedikit cinta kasih di dunia ini ?

Sedih, miris ... melihat situasi dunia saat ini. Dunia yang sombong, dunia yang angkuh dan egois. Jauh seperti pemikiranku waktu kecil tentang dunia yang indah dan damai. Perang, bom, teroris, demonstrasi, perusakan hutan, pencemaran lingkungan, pembunuhan, pelecehan ... Hey kenapa kalian melakukan itu ? Ingat kita ini hanya debu yang diberi sehelai nyawa oleh Tuhan. Kita bukan apa2 yang berhak merusak dan menghakimi.

 Barusan berselancar di Youtube, tentang perjalanan hewan dari peternakan sampai akhirnya menjadi siap konsumsi di supermarket. Oh damn ... betapa kejamnya manusia2 itu menyiksa hewan. Mereka dipukuli, diinjak, ditusuk badannya dan maaf dilukai anusnya sampai usus keluar padahal mereka masih hidup. Bisa dibayangkan sakitnya seperti apa ?? Hewan juga memiliki rasa sakit jika dilukai seperti manusia hanya saja mereka tidak bisa berbicara seperti manusia. Kenapa orang2 itu " menulikan " telinga mendengar rintihan kesakitan hewan itu ??? 

Aku ingin kita saling respect pada sesama manusia, hewan, tumbuhan dan lingkungan. Aku ingin semua berjalan harmonis. Sejenak kita bayangkan dunia tanpa adanya negara, perbedaan ... betapa indahnya kita bersama hidup rukun tanpa saling melukai dan meyakiti. Perbedaan adalah indah. Tuhan adalah satu.

If you love and care for more wonderful why do we have to hurt each other??
I love you all my Friend wherever you are in this world
we spread the love and affection
GOD BLESS YOU ^^



Complicated


Aku memang tak berhati besar untuk memahami hatimu di sana
Aku memang tak berlapang dada untuk menyadari kau bukan milikku lagi
Dengar dengarkan aku, Aku akan bertahan sampai kapanpun, sampai kapanpun .. 

Maafkan aku yang tak sempurna tuk dirimu
Usailah sudah kisah yang tak sempurna untuk kita kenang

Andai aku dapat merelakan setiap kepingan butiran kenangan indah
Andai aku sanggup menjalani setiap detik dan waktu yang datang ... 

Tentang cinta


Sekilas tentang dirimu yang lama kunanti
Memikat hatiku jumpamu pertama kali
Janji yang pernah terucap tuk satukan hati kita
Namun tak pernah terjadi.....

Mungkinkah masih ada waktu tersisa untukku
Mungkinkah masih ada cinta di hatimu
Andaikan saja aku tahu kau tak hadirkan cintamu
Ingin ku melepasmu dengan pelukan......

Sesal yang datang slalu takkan membuatmu kembali
Maafkan aku yang tak pernah tahu
Hingga semuanya kinipun t'lah berlalu
Maafkan aku......


Saturday, September 22, 2012

The mermaids song - My Jolly Sailor Bold


Upon one summer's morning, I carefully did stray,
Down by the Walls of Wapping, where I met a sailor gay,
Conversing with a bouncing lass, who seem'd to be in pain,
Saying, William, when you go, I fear you will ne'er return again.


His hair it does in ringlets hang, his eyes as black as soles,

My happiness attend him wherever he goes,
From Tower Hill, down to Blackwall, I will wander, weep and moan,
All for my jolly sailor bold, until he does return.

My father is a merchant — the truth I will now tell,
And in great London City in opulence doth dwell,
His fortune doth exceed ₤300,000 in gold,
And he frowns upon his daughter, 'cause she loves a sailor bold.

A fig for his riches, his merchandize, and gold,
True love is grafted in my heart; give me my sailor bold:
Should he return in poverty, from o'er the ocean far,
To my tender bosom, I'll fondly press my jolly tar.

My sailor is as smiling as the pleasant month of May,
And oft we have wandered through Ratcliffe Highway,
Where many a pretty blooming girl we happy did behold,
Reclining on the bosom of her jolly sailor bold.

Come all you pretty fair maids, whoever you may be
Who love a jolly sailor bold that ploughs the raging sea,
While up aloft, in storm or gale, from me his absence mourn,
And firmly pray, arrive the day, he home will safe return.

My name it is Maria, a merchant's daughter fair,
And I have left my parents and three thousand pounds a year,
My heart is pierced by Cupid, I disdain all glittering gold,
There is nothing that can console me but my jolly sailor bold.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Unconditional relationship ..


I’ve been in relations. SO.MANY.RELATIONSHIPS. I’ve gone through break-ups. SO.MANY.BREAK-UPS.

And yes, I’ve been through that phase of feeling like my world was ending and that I’d never ‘love’ again. I’ve cried for weeks and stalked them to see if they were just as miserable as I was. I think my last relationship was the best one yet, I’ll tell you why in a bit. Break-ups are tough.

I think I liked relationships mostly because there was someone to come ‘home’ to. Or that I didn’t have to clean the house on my own. Or go shopping alone. Or I’d have a guinea pig to test out first-time-recipes. None of them died, so shut up, I can cook.

Relationships give you that space to be comfortable. To walk around in next to nothing because, well, that other person has already seen you naked (I’m assuming it’s 2012 and you guys have evolved). Relationships allow you to go weeks without shaving (men and women), without getting that hair cut, relationships allow you to be lazy. They allow you to stop trying to impress.

Relationships allow you to fart in bed and then giggle ridiculously, they allow you to have someone to talk to when work, parents, friends, and terrible traffic, cigarettes prices affect you and you need to let it out. Relationships allow you to expect at least one present this Christmas, Diwali, Hanukkah , Valentines, Birthday, neighbours got a new huge-ass TV or simply-because days. Relationships allow you to laugh at silly things, like him going out to buy you a gift for Diwali when you’re Catholic and agreeing that a huge foozball table was a great idea. (Yeah that happened) Relationships allow you to have that one person you can turn to when you need to cry because you’re too goddamn ugly to be seen crying in public.

I cherish all of that. I assure you I do.

And my last relationship was no better. HIS.FARTS.WERE.TERRIBLE. But when it ended, all I could think of was the good times. He was funny and kind and caring, he probably still is but I don’t really care.  He was good to me and now he’s not around anymore. And just like most break-ups I tried to get over it but what I discovered this time around changed my life. Forever.

I am incapable of romantic love. Giving it or receiving it. I’ve been brought up with the lesson that love is unconditional and that you fiercely love and protect what you love. Romantic love can NEVER be unconditional. Full stop (Period is gross).

But a girl has needs and for as long as she’s a girl, she’ll get them satisfied. If you know what I mean. But don’t fret for unconditional love doesn’t go to waste, I have friends, dogs, cats, animals, trees, flowers and words that have my unconditional love.

So what I’m trying to get at, I can’t love you because I only know how to love unconditionally and I’ve loved too many to know that many aren’t worth that unconditional love. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll get involved, I’ll care for you, like no one has ever cared for you and I’ll do it because I believe in kindness and humanity and NOT because I love you.

Get the word out! Please? :

Friendship


This year and the end of last has mostly been about friendships for me. Luckily as I sit here and write this post i have finally found what it means to find people you’re comfortable enough to cry one minute and laugh hysterically with the next. Where it’s completely okay to be scared, nervous and weak but also be their strength, their hope and their courage when you know they need you. 

Last year i was fortunate to come across two women who i still love dearly but we’ve had a falling out. But that’s okay because the friendship made me stronger. It was a break-up that brought us together and in a moment of weakness for one of us, i found strength. In a moment of laughter i found friendship, i found love. But i also learned a lot, friendship isnt about one individual, it’s about all of us. Together. 

Friendship isnt about how you’re lonely and how no one wants to be with you. It isnt about the opposite sex. It isnt about romance. Friendship isnt about one person all the time. Friendship is about holding hands, holding dreams and running with them. 

So although i loved them to death, i don’t understand the need for friends to whore for attention when you’re with your inner circle. You’re important enough to be a part of an unconditional circle, why demand to be the alpha male? Or even the need to try and influence one friend about the other, how emotionally insecure can one person really be? Friends are supposed to help each other grow, support, and form an backbone for a lifetime of memories. 

I lost the concept of BEST friends  years ago, when that friendship gave me enough reason to never go back to the city i was born and grew up in. So no, i don’t have best friends and i often flit from group to group so as to maintain my sanity and not get too involved. I never get attached to ANYTHING. 

But today, I have strength, understanding and love from friends that make friendship easy. They help me understand that friendship isnt a competition and it shouldnt be difficult. 

I’ve struggled with difficult friendships. With friends who demand time, importance and priority. I am usually a hermit and love spending time on my own. I hate demands. Which will probably explain why i dislike relationships too. I’ve also dealt with immature friendships. You know the ones who try hard to be your friend just to make another friend jealous and then go back to said friend once the other has apologized or whatever. Im not sure if that even constitutes as a friendship. Even worse when someone you consider part of your inner circle bitches all his/her other friends out to you and has contempt for them so deep, you need to calm them down. But a week or two later, they seem fine with ALL their friends. They allow you to form an opinion of these people and then confuse you when they’re best friends again. WHATTHEFUCK. (Ps. Stay away from these types because if they’re bitching out people they’ve known for years, they’ll do the same to you and people who don’t even know you will form an opinion of you)

But as of right now, in this moment, I have friendship. Friends too. And i hope at some point in your lives, you get over yourselves and have some friends too. 

am I awesome ??


You dont always love yourself, do you ? Most of the time you dont. You feel like you're mistakes, a waste of space. This world can live without you, you dont feel love. What is love it anyway ? Where is the love ? At least not where you are it never seemsto be. It's only cold, inside and outside. You feel different, weird, boring and you feel so alone. The night swallows you whole, you drown in the darkness of your tears. It's never enough ... You think you're untalented , unimportant and ugly,, ugly in mirror is a painfull painting , a colourless mess ..

Let me tell you this : You are not enough. You are more than that way way way way way way way moreeeeee. Believe in yourself and never stop fighting. Againts the world. Againts the darkness. Turn the world upside down. You are awesome, You are important, You are talented, You are interesting, special and you are loved .. Maybe not always people you loved but there are people who loved you and if no one loves you... IM HERE . The world is a better place with you in it and I do love you a lot


Pergilah kasih _ d'masiv

 
tak pernah ku sangka ini terjadi
kisah cinta yang suci ini
kau tinggalkan begitu saja
sekian lama kita berdua
tak ku sangka cepat berlalu
tuk mencari kesombongan diri
lepas segala yang pernah kau ucapkan
kau tinggalkan daku

pergilah kasih kejarlah keinginanmu

selagi masih ada waktu
jangan hiraukan diriku
aku rela berpisah demi untuk dirimu
semoga tercapai segala keinginanmu

tak ku sangka cepat berlalu

tuk mencari kesombongan diri
lepas segala yang pernah kau ucapkan
kau tinggalkan daku

pergilah kasih kejarlah keinginanmu

selagi masih ada waktu
jangan hiraukan diriku
aku rela berpisah demi untuk dirimu
semoga tercapai segala keinginanmu

pergilah kasih kejarlah keinginanmu

selagi masih ada waktu
jangan hiraukan diriku
aku rela berpisah demi untuk dirimu
semoga tercapai segala keinginanmu

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Sorry ....

I’m sorry- for the ignorance
I’m sorry-for the coldhearted
I’m sorry-for the denial
I’m sorry-for the disappearance
I’m sorry-for the misbehaving
I’m sorry-for the missing piece
I’m sorry-for pseudo listening
I’m sorry-for the harsh words
I’m sorry-for the promises I could not fulfill
I’m sorry-for the wasted long journey
I’m sorry-for the shattered bottle of perfume
I’m sorry-for the lost parcel
I’m sorry-for the kinky acts
I’m sorry-for the deep old cuts
I’m sorry-for the hurt and wound
I’m so sorry-for everything that makes you upset but I’m still doing it purposely-
And above all-
I’m so sorry-for making you love me endlessly, for taking your heart-and I never give it back…

Friday, September 14, 2012

True

Yes, life is hard. As you grow older, you'll learn what true heart-wrenching pain feels like. You'll realize that majority of the people you once believed in will let you down. You'll fall in & out of things that you think are love, & it'll hurt. There'll be people out there that want to see you fall down, it might happen. But you'll get up, fake a smile, & move on. You'll go from being called a brat to a bitch. You'll be pressured to do bad things. You'll keep secrets. You will regret, but forget. You'll be heartbroken, and break some hearts. You'll fight with your best friend, & either keep or lose that friendship. Things will get unbearable, & you will spend a lot of time crying. You'll miss the spirit of your innocence. You will survive though, I promise. You'll fight on & you will live to see another day. You will find true love where you least expect it, you will be adored by many. Life will move on& you'll realize that all the pain & confusion brought you closer to happiness.

Apesar de... Por Clarice Lispector




Uma das coisas que aprendi é que se deve viver apesar de. Apesar de, se deve comer. Apesar de, se deve amar. Apesar de, se deve morrer. Inclusive muitas vezes é o próprio apesar de que nos empurra para a frente. Foi o apesar de que me deu uma angústia que insatisfeita foi a criadora de minha própria vida. Foi apesar de que parei na rua e fiquei olhando para você enquanto você esperava um táxi. E desde logo desejando você, esse teu corpo que nem sequer é bonito, mas é o corpo que eu quero. Mas quero inteira, com a alma também. Por isso, não faz mal que você não venha, espararei quanto tempo for preciso.

ma sexy "BF" Adam Levine ... jajajaja



















Me .... :D

My photo
Im just a little girl in the big world,i have biggest dream make my parent and brother happy, around the world

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